The weekend was fairly uneventful, but highly relaxing. I was able to counteract the feeling of being a complete lump by getting to the gym both days, which then made me feel okay about vegging out. Not that I should feel guilty about down time, but sometimes my mind wanders to what I should be doing. This often equates to “I should exercise” and “I should clean something.”
I counteracted both of these this weekend. I used the gym to quiet the exercise voice and I made it a point to do twenty minutes of cleaning each day so I could get that done and out of the way (Jon helped me with this, because he’s awesome). The twenty minutes has been effective. The house is pretty nice and tidy right now, and we finally got a start on packing for an eventual move and paring down our pile of stuff.
Once those two things were done, I was able to enjoy a lot of reading time (including staying up super late on Friday night), some movie time, and some knitting. I also did some writing. The other night I had an idea for a new story, so I started writing it. I decided to make it a habit to write 1000 words a day. It’s not a lot, but it keeps me on track and it limits me from burning out in a few days. Plus, I’ve noticed that some days the words come easy, and other days it’s like sludging through mud to make a coherent sentence. The story isn’t going the way I thought it would, but I’m going to see it through to the end to determine if there’s anything viable there.
Today was mentally taxing. Learning a new job is tough, and I’m currently working on a challenging project that is making me question my abilities. Luckily, I’m getting help and support from co-workers, but I’m having a hard time keeping my confidence up. I’ve toyed with the thought of asking to keep my old position, but I’m pretty sure that comes from fear and stress. I have to keep telling myself that at some point in the near future I’ll learn this and it won’t be so hard and I’ll be back to knowing that I have a few talents to offer up. Right now, though, I just need to breathe and try not to focus on just how incompetent I feel.
Day jobs, right?
Though I was pretty hyped about making it to the gym over the weekend, we decided today was a good day to just head home. I have no regrets. We did our round of cleaning the apartment, though I have a few more things to do before bed to prep for housesitting the next couple of nights. I also managed to watch some of the newest lecture videos from my Coursera course, and after I catch up on some blogs, I’ll have plenty of time to read before bed. Yay for time management!
On that note, Harry Dresden is waiting for me, so I’m off for the night.